From the lies of globalism to the erotomaniac conditioning.

I’m also deprogramming myself from believing that consuming the zeitgeist holds any importance. This decision is mostly related to how disingenuous is the current culture with the lack of shared resources. If people exploit you without sharing their profit, what sort of participation do you have? Less than the participation of a slave because the slave doesn’t pay taxes, the slave eat, sleeps and have all sorts of maintainment for exchange of labour. Is it freedom if you can’t have properties, privacy and can be harassed where you go? Where people can hire neighbors to follow you around and to keep shouting things at you or having a parrot with the only intent of annoying you? 

I don’t think I’ll have enough time and resources to expose me to a new lifestyle that could possible reverse a decade long isolation and I can’t reverse the stigma of being discredit without the external validation, so I’m conditioning myself trough repetition and deconstruction to a life where some of the old conditioning will not be part of it, the disbelief is really helpful and based on my previous experiences, overall condition of my present life with a realistic projection of my near future.

It is nearly impossible to socialize without this external validation because the distress generated from the meddling in my personal life is something that I can’t properly tolerate and I can’t make people understand the sort of harassment I’m always dealing with. I’m accepting the life of the stigmatized discredited person, everything that I talk to my relatives they instinctively do the opposite or automatically have a disbelief, this contaminated every aspect of my personal relations to the point of the disbelief in me is dangerous. 

I’ll dedicate myself to deprogram me from those delusions and condition me to a sustainable life. Too much time passed and it become reasonable for me to prefer a life where I’m able to dedicate the maximum amount of my time to my intellectual, artistic and literary aspirations.